He looked back towards the living room.
I didn’t need to hear her answer.
“Go back to your wife,” I told him.
-Mother…
—We’ll talk when you’re ready to listen to me.
—You can’t just leave like this. People are going to ask questions.
That made me look at it again.
—Is that what worries you? What people are going to say?
—You don’t understand.
—Then explain it to me.
Jacob did not answer.
Behind the doors, the music started again. Someone burst out laughing. Voices mingled with the clinking of glasses.
My son took a deep breath.
—Look, if you want, you can sit at another table. I’ll talk to Amanda. But please don’t make a scene.
I looked at him with a sadness that I no longer needed to hide.
—You’re offering me another table after allowing your wife to kick me out of the party.
—Don’t look at it that way.
—How do you want me to see it?
He lowered his voice.
—Like a misunderstanding.
For the first time that night, I felt my heart stop making excuses for him.
—No, Jacob. A misunderstanding is when someone gets a date or address wrong. What happened in there was a decision.
I took the sealed envelope out of my bag.
Her eyes fixed on him.
-What’s that?
—A letter.
—For whom?
—For people who need to read it.
Jacob stretched out his hand.
—The lady.
I held her tighter.
—No.
His expression changed.
—Mom, don’t be childish.
That word hurt me less than he expected.
Perhaps because, after so many years, I was beginning to recognize the mechanism. When I didn’t do what he wanted, he called me dramatic. When I insisted on talking, he said I was too sensitive. And when I finally gave in, he congratulated me for understanding the situation.
“I’m not going to argue with you,” I told him. “Go back to the party.”
Jacob looked at the envelope again.
—What did you write?
-The truth.
—What truth?
Before I could answer, the doors opened.
Amanda appeared with her white dress lifted slightly so she wouldn’t step on it. Her face had regained that flawless smile she wore in front of the guests, but her eyes were furious.
—Jacob, what are you doing here?
—I’m talking to my mom.
Amanda looked me up and down.
—I thought you had already left.
—Not yet—I replied.
She let out an incredulous laugh.
—Are you seriously going to continue with this?
—I’m not doing anything, Amanda.
—Of course. You never do anything. You just call the administrator, pull out mysterious papers, and turn our wedding into a spectacle.
Jacob stood beside her.
Not in front of her.
Beside him.
As if the two of them were defending the same truth against a stubborn woman.
“What letter is that?” Amanda asked.
“That’s none of your business,” I replied.
Her mouth opened slightly.
She wasn’t used to me talking to her like that.
—Excuse me, what did you say?
—I said it’s none of your business.
Amanda took a step closer.
—Judith, I want you to understand something. This wedding is Jacob’s and mine. You have no right to use money to control us.
I stared at her.
—Control them? Is asking you to treat me with respect controlling you?
—You’ve always wanted Jacob to feel guilty for everything you do for him.
Those words made me think about the nights I had worked overtime, the vacations Harold and I canceled, and the savings we set aside for our old age.
I had never asked Jacob to give us anything back.
Not once.
—Amanda, I have never charged my son for the love I gave him.
—Well, it seems you now want to charge her for the wedding.
Jacob intervened immediately.
Amanda, that’s enough.
For a second, my heart skipped a beat.
But he did not continue to defend me.
“Let’s not talk about money here,” he added. “We have guests.”
Amanda crossed her arms.
—Exactly. There are guests. And I’m not going to let this ruin everything.
He turned towards me.
“You can stay if you behave discreetly. But I want you to put that letter away, take off that chain, and stop seeking attention.”
I noticed Harold’s ring on my chest.
Then I looked at the envelope I was holding in my hand.
—I’m not going to take either of those things off.
Amanda paled.
—Then go.
Jacob closed his eyes, as if he were tired of listening to two women who couldn’t agree.
And that expression finally convinced me.
I was not facing a man trapped between his mother and his wife.
I was facing a man who had discovered that keeping quiet was more comfortable than doing the right thing.
“Okay,” I said.